Well, I guess it's been a little while. Kurt and I split up last Tuesday. No drama to speak of, just the usual unrequited love story. So I got dumped. It's all for the best, blah blah blah.....all that crap. Yeah, maybe I shouldn't get into it right now.
So yeah, that's life right now, in a nutshell. Lots of TV and cigarettes, not much sleep. Still waiting for that Gloria Gaynor phase to kick in.
Motivation, when needed, is borrowed by watching Buffy kick ass for twelve hours straight, then quickly deflated when I turn on the radio and hear an announcement for The Reverse/Bleed show, which is tonight. I'm supposed to go. Told everyone I'd go, just to prove no hard feelings, try to have a good time. Just don't know if I want to see and hear Kurt singing, "I need you baby, but you can't tame me," and, "You can beat my heart black if you want to," followed by the 15-minute extended live version of Bleed's "No Greater Love," know what I mean?
Lots of ghosts lurking about. Dreams and such. I felt better after going to Rockford and wallowing there for a day. Rockford usually helps my mood, because no matter how bad I feel, I can always go there and think, "Well, it could be worse. I could be living *here*." And then I came back with the Buffy Season Four DVD set from Trace, and thought "Buffy. Yeah. That'll make me feel better." So I made some popcorn to eat while I watched, and as I sat down with the bowl on my lap, I realized that the last time I ate popcorn was while watching "Lord of the Rings" with Kurt. It's like that Buddhist lesson in meditation. "Let your thoughts be free. Let them roam where they will - just don't think about an elephant."
I know, I know - the luxurious hair, the striking facial features. It's an easy mistake. You'd be amazed by how many people approach me at work, in the grocery store, you name it, goin', "HEY! GOD! What's UP, man?!" And I'm like, "Uh....." And they're like, "Oh....I could've sworn...."
All the time. I should really start wearing a sign.
1. "You don't do anything small, do you?" - Kurt
I now have a cell phone, cable internet, and am working on getting iChat AV and a digital camera. The age of technophobia is officially over. I don't think I could possibly kill it any more deader (the English language, however....).
2. I have been unable to find The Cure's "Seventeen Seconds" album in any retail stores I've visited recently. This can only mean that The Cure, unlike many other 80s bands that have been re-vamped for the new generation, just isn't being listened to as much as they were, i.e., there is no longer a demand for The Cure's "Seventeen Seconds" album.
3. Michael Stipe was on "Last Call with Carson Daly" last night.
4. Even Michael Stipe can no longer remember the words to "It's the End of the World As We Know It (And I Feel Fine)."
5. Shane MacGowan already has documentaries on cable television, and he isn't even dead yet (although that could be argued).
6. Liz Phair's latest album was produced by the same people who made Avril Levigne.
7. The Descendents' "Milo Goes to College" album was featured on a horrible teen show on the WB Tuesday night.
Brave New World indeed.
YOU DIDN'T SHOW UP ON SUNDAY, YOU PUNK.
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I have cable internet now! Wheeeeeeee!
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